I just want to be different

My mind and my heart constantly throw out prayers these days- scattered, random, all over the place, not making very much sense to my human ears.
Thanking him for another day. Asking for the world’s healing physically and spiritually. Asking for eyes to see needs around me. Thanking him for people working so hard. Asking for provision for those around me.
But day after day, each morning, my heart’s prayer and desire is that I won’t be the same at the end of this as I was at the beginning. I just want to be different. I want to be changed. I want to be better on the other side of this.
The days are less full. Lunch goes by so much faster when you don’t linger at a restaurant talking. Coffee dates in the afternoon aren’t a thing. There is just inevitably what feels like more time.
So how do I fill that time?
How do you fill that time?
I could easily Netflix the entire day away. I could wake up late, take a nap and still go to bed earlier. I could mindlessly scroll for hours.
I can choose to stay focused and intentional with my time and with people.
For you personally, I don’t know what this looks like. Maybe it means you continue to wake up before your kids while the house is still silent to study your Bible. Maybe it means you slip outside and just take a deep breath mid-afternoon.
Or…maybe it just means you take ordinary moments during the day with your family to turn them into God shots. To point your family to Jesus. To turn lunch conversations into lessons on how God provides. To teach grace during moments of school work.
I don’t know what it looks like for you.
But I know what it looks like for me.
Starting the day saying, “God help me not be the same at the end of this as I was at the beginning.”
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4 thoughts on “I just want to be different

  1. Peevee Barrington

    Yoooww!! Hahha.

    True though. Me, I’m so afraid that the quarantine days would become nothing but a waste time. Trying to take advantage of this time to grow too.

    Hope you’re doing well there. ❤️

  2. Pam Henderson

    I love this Meagan. Thank you for spilling out your entire life for Jesus!

  3. Beverly Babb

    Intentional is a word that I’ve had on my heart this year, as well. But the way you’ve put it into words about not being the same at the end of “all this” was worded beautifully. Thank you, sweet friend, for reaching out and sharing your heart. It has already given me a better perspective and direction. You are so loved!

  4. Rick Fountain

    I like it

    Sent from my iPhone


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