Every day as I spend time with our kids I am realizing more and more just how under qualified I am to be doing what I am.
I don’t have a business degree to know how to open a ministry center.
I am not a mother of five, or even one, who is experienced in raising children.
I did not study social work or psychology in school to help these kids talk through their problems and issues in life.
I am not a huge manly man who can protect these kids.
The more I think about all of these ways I am under qualified the more I realize I should be scared to death. Or worried I won’t do something right. Or overwhelmed by all there is to do. Or intimidated because I don’t have all the answers.
Yet every night when I come home I can’t help but smile at my time spent with the kids. I can’t help but laugh as I replay the faces the kids made that day. I can’t help but chuckle at how a kid just decided to break out in dance moves. I can’t help but giggle at how the smallest kid out there tried to stop traffic to park a car.
I smile & laugh not because I have it all figured out, but because God has given me this complete peace that I am not the one in control. I can’t do this alone. We can’t do this on our own. I have to fully depend and trust him for every decision I make, or we make as a team.
It’s not always an easy thing. It’s not always easy to walk away from the kids knowing they will sleep on the street. It’s not always easy knowing they won’t have another meal until we return the next day.
But it’s so worth it to trust that God has this!
Not me. Not our team.
But my Father, their Father!
I am way under qualified to live the life I am living but I cling to the cheesy quote I hear often:
“God doesn’t call the equipped. He equips the called!”